A vacation is so badly needed right now! I can hardly wait till Saturday...or Friday...whenever I decide to leave

Work is so stressful, all I want to do is sit here and be in pain...because I am...but that's a different pain. Anywho! So I hope tomorrow goes by fast. My boss left work today to go skiing. I love my job.

I'm excited for this trip. I miss my mom like crazy. And Wicket...!! I get to see my puppy, oh I'm so excited. So many pictures will be taken on this trip

I'm so ready to just sleep in! And enjoy the sun! And...ya. I need a break from primary children too. It's official. I really don't have patience for those kids. Anywho, I'm leaving soon and I'm so excited.

Toodles

<3 Tenille

P.S. This cake tastes silly.

I don't understand why the one person that has never really been in my life, is the one person that can make me cry the hardest.

I don't understand how anyone could not be able to love another...especially a child.

I don't understand why I'm not good enough, no matter how hard I try.

...I know I have so many blessings. And I'm so glad to be alive, especially recently. I know I may even look into things way to hard...but...I don't understand why he treats me like this...

Everyone says I should just forget about him...but I want a father...

Mom says I should teach him how a real father daughter relationship goes...but how can I show him that?

I don't want to care about him so much anymore...but I can't help but have love for him...

At least they are in the pic XD So there's a new picture of Logan and I. He's so adorable ^_^. Work has gone by so slow today too! Normally today is the fastest day of the week, but there is NOTHING to do...I think I'm going to leave 45 minutes early to do an address verification... I know where this address is too! Yay. I want to dance...so hopefully we'll be able to do that today...umm...

Spending time with my father was ok. Nothing to bad happened, just me get depressed over little things, but I'm over that now! I love him with all my heart and I just wish he could love me the same. I guess we'll see. Tra lalalalala

I want to go pounce Logan...but he's probably off playing D&D or something. I made a character to that ^_^ I'm freaking hot, so when I enter the room everyone is like Oh my goodness you're amazing, and I'm like "I know". Just kidding we haven't started yet. But it should be fun. There really isn't much going on in my life. Which is sad. But o-well. I do need to get going though. Take luck!!

<3 Tenille

So my Father has come down for the week...er' weekend I don't know. I'm supposed to see him tomorrow. I've taken the day off of work for him, but I still haven't heard from them. Last thing I heard was "we're driving down Wednesday." I honestly can't wait to see him and I'm excited I might get to spend the whole day with him...but then I can't help but think, what we'll do. We have so much in common except he makes everything complicated because he doesn't know how to act around me (because I'm a girl...basically). Anyway so ya. Another thing that kind of sucks is tomorrow is my pay day and I kind of really need the money because I over spent during christmas...so ya, we don't get checks in till I practically leave. Hopefully I'll be able to come into work in the evening and then cash it! I guess we'll see. I'm kind of tempted to work in the morning till he see's me, but then I'm kind of tempted to sleep in...cept I take Elise to school in the morning, so I can't really sleep in. I guess we'll see...my plans will probably change when my Father actually decides to call me...but till then I'll plan to go in and work in the morning.

So Logan is absolutely adorable! We're going to make banana bread after work...and after I put a load of clothes in (the laundry that is) ^_^ I like baking stuff with him because he's adorable...and I love to kiss him, and I can pounce him half the time. Tra lala. On Logan's 16th birthday Tayva (his sister) made him a dating interview packet thing. Just a bunch of random questions basically. It's really funny though. Long story short I finally filled one out yesterday and he's adorable and gives me the warmest feelings inside. So happy....oh! Logan gave me these happy de congestion pills so I can breathe now! Or at least blow my nose and breathe. Great fun...Anyway I better attempt to find something to do at work. Have a fabbity fab fab day!

Every glance
Every word
Every smile
Starts my heart
Every breath,
Every motion
Makes me smile
Makes me clumsy
It makes my heart
Flutter in my chest
Every glance
My heart thumps
Every word
My skin warms
Every smile
My breath stops
Every thought of you
Brings a smile to my face
Everything about you
I love.

- Mellory Barnes

P.S. I want you...and seriously can't stop thinking about you. Toodles!